December 19th, 2003


The Ultimate 'Sum Up Your Year' Meme!! *weeping in awe*

(btw I had to take the night off sick from work...too physically exhausted and I have a long weekend of theatre ahead of me...)

The Meme to end all Memes

1. What did you do in 2003 that you'd never done before?

Ended a 10 year relationship that had died 3-6 years ago (Nov 2002) and dealt with the fallout, then in August/September 2003 fell utterly, stupidly in love and had my heart broken into irretrievable pieces by mid-November.

2. Did you keep your new years' resolutions, and will you make more for next year?

I don't remember them, therefore I can't have kept them. I won't be making any more...if I do they must be positive ones.

3. did anyone close to you give birth?

April. My middle sister had a home birth and I assisted with the delivery...messy but an incredible awe-inspiring experience.

4. Did anyone close to you die?

Thankfully not. Though I did wish that some of them had.

5. What countries did you visit?

Nowhere real, but explored many previously uncharted realms within my own psyche...not all good though:/

6. What would you like to have in 2004 that you lacked in 2003?

More money, emotional stability, to be loved without eventual rejection and misery.

7. What date from 2003 will remain etched upon your memory, and why?

September 2003-November 2003. RIP. Utter euphoria to total hysterical heartbreak in 3 easy months.

8. What was your biggest achievement of the year?

Breaking free of burdens and finding my own independance.

9. What was your biggest failure?

Giving my heart away to readily and putting far far too much trust in others.

10. Did you suffer illness or injury?

Plenty of flu, migraines and a sprained ankle from a bad fall that didn't heal for 4 months.

11. What was the best thing you bought?

Gamecube, GBA sp, books books books...CORSETRY!!!!!

12. Whose behaviour merited celebration?

None that I can immediately recall.

13. Whose behaviour made you appalled and depressed?

A few people who shall remain nameless. Read between the lines.

14. Where did most of your money go?

Bills, rent, unneccessary unnaffordable toiletries not for myself.

15. What did you get really, really, really excited about?

Weird Cabaret and other theatre/art/creative projects. Going to London with my gay friends for Mardi Gras in June/July-ish. Had an amazing, absolutely fabulous time!!

16. What song will always remind you of 2003?

The Bolshoi : Away/Lindy's Party...anything on a particular compilation that was made for me...and 'Your Disco' : Kylie...from Zero's nightclub and fun nights/weekends with my gay friends.

17. Compared to this time last year, are you happier or sadder?

Sadder in some ways, happier in others. Hard to say.

ii. thinner or fatter?


iii. richer or poorer?

Much poorer.

18. What do you wish you'd done more of?

Socialising and being independant. I did LOTS AND LOTS (more so than ever before in the last 10 years)...but not enough after September.

19. What do you wish you'd done less of?

Nothing. I live for excess!!

20. How will you be spending Christmas?

A few tedious hours at my parents and no other plans...going out drinking and partying in stunning corsetry hehe.

22. Did you fall in love in 2003?

Tragically so.

23. How many one night stands?

Absolutely none!! I'm not that sort of person...victorian romantic sensibility and very very strong morals. My body is a private thing, only to be shared with those I hoped for a future with which I can count on less fingers than exist on one hand in my entire experience of relationships thus far.

24. What was your favourite TV programme?

The Hoobs. No question of a doubt.

25. Do you hate anyone now that you didn't hate this time last year?

I don't EVER hate people. Even if they deserve to be hated for treating me badly. NOt even capable of bearing a grudge. I always look for the good in others regardless and try desperately to remain friends when I really should walk away.

26. What was the best book you read?

I read too many this year to bring any particular one to mind. I thoroughly enjoyed them all...

27. What was your greatest musical discovery?

That a piece I was learning successfully on my cello was 3 grades above my level of tuition and yet I could still do it!!

28. What did you want and get?

My own independance.

29. What did you want and not get?

Relief from a mountainous financial nightmare of debt.

30. What was your favourite film of this year?

No idea. Tho I watched Moulin Rouge on video the other night for the first time...that stands out as the main does the original Texas Chainsaw Massacre, Dead Poets Society, Dangerous Liasons, Audition, Heavenly Creatures, The Matrix and the many many others I watched again and again this year as countless other years!!.

31. What did you do on your birthday, and how old were you?

I was 29. I believe I was drunk somewhere...or at work. I don't recall.

32. What one thing would have made your year immeasurably more satisfying?

Not being rejected. Being able to keep my head above water financially.

33. How would you describe your personal fashion concept in 2003?

Romantic goth, corsetty goth, EGL.

34. What kept you sane?

Cigarettes, Alcohol and solitude.

35. Which celebrity/public figure did you fancy the most?

No idea. Though Alan Rickman was quite fanciable in the first Harry Potter my youngest sister pointed out when she forced me to watch it.

36. What political issue stirred you the most?

The war in Iraq...satirised evilly in the first 3 Weird Cabaret Shows..."If you cannot find Osama, Bomb Iraq. If the markets are a drama, Bomb Iraq..." to the tune of If you're happy and you know it. And 'Starting a war again, father wanted to....' performed in drag to the tune of 'Falling in love again' etc etc

37. Who did you miss?

Myself. Quite careless of me I know...but I just walked right past!!

38. Who was the best new person you met?

'The one' that was also the worst and most destructive to my trust in people toward the end of the year:(

...and my dear rl/lj buddy wildgift93 who is an absolute darling!! (and many many other rl/lj friends)

39. Tell us a valuable life lesson you learned in 2003.

Not to give myself away so readily and wholeheartedly, to be more cautious in affairs of the heart, and to not be so entirely selfless all the claim time for myself when I desperately need it.

40. Quote a song lyric that sums up your year.

The Divine Comedy : Too Young To Die.

Too young to die, but too old to survive
I've spent too long trying to write this song
The tune is okay, but the words are all wrong
Maybe it's time for a change

I've lived a lie since the day I arrived
Building my dreams, grand romantic schemes
Now I'm twenty eight, but I'm still in my teens
Maybe it's time for a change

Now it's time to say goodbye
To my suit, my shirt, my tie
My youth seems to have passed me by
And I'm too young to die

I will not weep for what we leave behind
I must break free from that part of me
That values the art over the humanity
I think it's time for a change

I thought that I was doing fine
But now I've changed my mind
'Cause now it's time to say goodbye
To my suit, my shirt, my tie
My youth seems to have passed me by
And I'm too young to die

Maybe it's time for a change...
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