December 8th, 2003


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Finished the other bottle of red wine last night...was actually very drunk...

To the extent that I had an hour long phone conversation with wildgift93 in which I loudly bemoaned the fact that my artistic temperament made me have euphoric theatre/arts-based ups and downs and drink/party a lot inbetween and that it would be a compromise to myself to be like 9-5 boring people who just sat and watched soap operas and discussed Eastenders.

I'm sure 9-5 people who have normal jobs/normal relationships/normal tv habits etc are very happy...but I don't fit with that...feel like that sort of life would suffocate me...would trap me in its monotony...I need to express a bit wild and temperamental...I may be a bit of a lush at the moment...but I'm being me, and not censoring myself or my behaviour in anyway in pursuit of 'normality' or fitting in with any other dull plebian...

Also decided on the phone that I'm on a constant quest for approval and have an inherent need to share everything I do with others else I'm not satisfied myself...which is true. I need to work on my independance and be happy with my art for me without requiring someone else to say it's good before I'm happy...

And that I am becoming Withnail... wildgift93 hadn't seen it and I drunkenly insisted she's one of my favourite films...and a classic...

Tho 'How To Get Ahead in Advertising' is equally brilliant (another Bruce Robinson/Richard E. Grant film), I do prefer 'Withnail and I' since I tend to identify with it hehe

Then I went to bed and pretty much passed out lol

Got up today at about 6pm...I have to be in work by 8:30 to start at 9 as I'm making up time...I'll be late on Tuesday after the dress run. Wheeeeeeeeeee!!!!

*off to check that the bath hasn't overflowed yet*

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